Gentle Ben

I am not where I want to be… I regularly feel ashamed about who I am. Sometimes I’m filled with insecurity and doubt, other times I get stuck in anger at all that I have endured. There are moments when…

I'm standing on the edge of a precipice  

I’m scared to look down 

I'm afraid I won't like what I see 

My heart is pulling me 

towards the edge at the tip of my feet 

…

beautiful boy, darling boy 

I know that you are afraid 

I want you to know that I understand why you are scared 

and sad 

and feeling so alone 

but I am here to…

Stories of transition often times have many beginnings.  The first time I was able to articulate my understanding of “who I am” was actually a culmination of many experiences building up to my “coming out” moment. Coming out was just…

My defensiveness is reflexive, and lately I have been teetering on edge. 

It is no surprise when the most intimate aspects of my life 

have been shared all over the world 

and yet they are completely invisible…

Thank you for raising me to be strong enough to face the world 

and then for standing by my side while I stand up for myself. 

I know how hard it can be to relive our experiences…

My first night in Edinburgh, I slept in the airport. I waited too long to book a bed in a hostel, so I found myself a bench without arm rests and laid down. I woke up an hour later, relieved…

Oh, how time can move both fast & slow is so amazing to me 
5/21 marks four years into my transition 

when I started, I wondered what my life would look like in a few years, 

who would…

Right now, all around this country, there are people trying to pass legislation that polices the right of transgender and gender non-conforming folks to use public restrooms… 

The fact that these bullies have made it a priority for our…

4/25/2016

BFI Flare, an LGBT film festival recently flew me overseas for the first public screening of REAL BOY.

Y'all I was sooooo nervous.

A lot of people have asked me if it's uncomfortable, 

watching my nineteen year…

~3/16/2016    

I love that all the money I’d spend to rent 
  
a place to work  a job
  
goes into my gas tank, and takes me 
  
on an adventure 
  
   surrounded by tokens 
  
of affection

from friends I’ve made 
  
and kept…

~ 3/11/2016 

Only God Can Judge Me
but i know she'd rather love me
kiss my scars and wipe my tears
and hold my hand when things get ugly
cus' I know, I know
it won't be long before…