My defensiveness is reflexive, and lately I have been teetering on edge.
It is no surprise when the most intimate aspects of my life
have been shared all over the world
and yet they are completely invisible to the people around me
I walk around this paradox in my head like
there is no conclusion to be made
just truth to witness
and so
it can feel exhausting
walking in circles
to be so vulnerable all the time
i know
there are no words to neatly describe
the pain of empowerment
I have come up empty
when I tried
but
when I look at my life
I know
something powerful
is working,
and that this journey
has been
anointed.